Director’s Cut

Well, the month of November has been *mildly* cruel to me, and it’s safe to say I’m still wasting my time here.

Looking back at my previous post(and oh, now that’s what I call a post.), I haven’t been able to pull myself together, ’cause my condition isn’t really 100% ok(I still stumble when I walk.), so let’s see…

oh no, I’m running out of things to type…

Looking forward to what my post today should be… uhh… zzz…

There’s still one thing I could not pinpoint all this time in my life…

(even lenghtening the sentence would cause you to mistake it for a paragraph.)

"Wow, guess even the people who don’t want to fall in love actually will.", I said to myself. I felt like the guy who was stuck in the middle of a war; I’m a civilian, and yet, I took all the bullet shots. It’s one of the things which doesn’t pick its victims… err…targets. I have been most unfortunate to get hit, and i mean HIT. The enemy took out the largest plasma cannon and rained down shots at me(and the said plasma cannon had absolutely no reload time, but you would have to be so interested in guns, artillery, and the like to actually understand what I just said inside the parentheses, so lay off me!).

Well that was quite long.

So what else is in store for me for the next, say, month(4 weeks, 30 days, 720 hours, 43 200 minutes, 2.592M seconds, 259.2M msec.)? I do not know either. What do I look like, someone who cares?!

(Innermost rage is best released through written stuff, say, blogs.)

So, I guess this is the end.(No, I’ll still make loads of blog entries before this actual blog dies.)

*Note: Stuff inside parentheses are just used to confuse the readers. No hard feelings. Nothing personal. Just for fun.

(I still cannot get over about what I just typed in the previous post. Me, in love?! Please, I have 8,976 other things to do. And I excluded breathing from that list! And this is stuff inside parentheses you shouldn’t take as crap.)

(Numbers were calculated using a math co-processor. You know… floating point, linear algebra, hexadecimal system used in getting font colors in HTML and sometimes in editing files, binary language used in keyboards and keyloggers, and data types in C++?!?!?! What the heck did I just type?)

for the past weeks, i haven’t been posting. maybe i’m too busy? umm, i was never busy. i don’t budge that easily. it’ll take more than that to get me moving…

now before I change the topic, let’s get to business.

with the occasional personal/academic problems, it’s safe to say i’m still fine.

those people could see right through me.

not much good luck has been pouring in this last week. well, i’ve been screwed again. that’s the best i could describe it. my grades are goin’ down, and i mean down. Let’s say it’s like the total distance of going to the earth’s core and back. Of course, this is 999% exaggarated info, but, what the heck, you like me that way

no, not today. i still cannot bear to see myself saying that(or in this case, inputting it in ASCII/binary, but, hmm…) what is happening to me? am i still the same person i used to think about.

yet, it hit me right in the head.

if this is what they call ‘love’, i have been hit by cupid’s arrow(and it’s still not valentine’s day, imagine that). I don’t think i’m that in love, but, I think i’m falling for her. i don’t have the strength to admit it; i’d rather embarass myself in some other way. and to think, before, i didn’t even like her. she’s probably the most wonderful girl on earth(in my opinion), but, I seriously think she doesn’t like me, not at all.

s***. what is happening…

I’m just probably wasting my time.

Ok, let’s just pretend I didn’t type that crap right then and there.

/*By the way, I’m a straight guy. Nope, not gay, nor metrosexual/bisexual/whatever, though I don’t have anything against those kinds of people. just writing to remind all of you(like i told you in the first place.)*/

This is probably one of my most stupid posts ever. Damn.

(Up to this moment I’m still thinking whether I should press that ’save’ button over there. I pray God will give me strength to do this. But, well, as they say, be true to yourself. Here goes everything!)